Thursday, January 8, 2009

It has been a very long time since I have written to you. Much has happened in the months that have passed and these events have shaped and molded me as an individual in ways I could never have imagined. The world is a scary place right now. There is so much taking place in so many places that I often feel overwhelmed but in all of this I have found a new humility and a new purpose. Things that were important only a few months ago are no longer top priorities in my life today. I have looked around at so many things and realized that there is much I can live without but through all of this uncertainty and fear there are several constants, one of which is you. No matter what this life throws at us, I will always have you (your siblings, and your father). It is as though my heart has opened up again to let new love in and I feel it more keenly than ever before. Will you ever know how much I love you? Life is so simple when you have someone (or many someones) to love. I promise that whether the future brings great joy or a measure of pain, I will make the most of it. I will do my best to teach you to be content and happy with what you have. I feel that this is a great blessing from a mother to a son, indeed to any child. I will consider it my crowning achievement if I can succeed. This is a great time to learn a great many things. Be aware of the good that is around you! Indeed, let us both seek out the good each day and we will all be the better for it. You are a good young man and I am hoping that I am raising you in a manner pleasing to God.

I love you!